Life Still Goes On....

So, I cleaned my house today. It took from when I woke up at 11am this morning, pretty much till 4pm tonight. Got pretty far. Made my mom pretty happy. It gave me a little too much time to think, but I guess that is how moving on works. I took my dog for a walk this evening, and talked a bit with my friends. They are all so wonderful, it would be hard not to talk to them, laugh, and enjoy every second. Now, I am alone again. Thinking. Life has it's moments, it takes a strong person to chose not to indulge in them and keep going on. I wish, at times, I were that person. Maybe, someday. : /

Some Things Just Don't Work

So I said it. More like messaged it. In the end, nothing changed. It's amazing how you can be utterly happy one moment, and entirely depressed the next. That's how it's been since. That, I can honestly say, is how it will be for a little while. :'(

Balance...

Hey Readers,
So as of lately, balance has become a big problem for me. School, job, friends, family, music, etc.
With all of my college stuff coming up in the fall, I'll admit to being a little stressed as to not know how all will turn out. I am hoping for decent scores. My job is going okay. I never thought I'd be able to fit in with a job at a hardware store, but I guess I proved myself wrong on that one. Friends and family are both great. I love being around as many of them as I can get at any point. What can I say? I AM definitely a people person. Music is going fine. Orchestra is busy, as we prepare for Fiddler's Jamboree yet again this year. I've decided at the last second to take on the practice required to go to the said event. I am excited though, for the actual concert coming up in the spring, it's going to occur on MY turf. Yup, we're playing at the high school in my town... eek! (really excited)

I have something else to add to my busyness. I am head-over-heals for someone right now. I am afraid to get into any form of a relationship and have it ended on me, though. Being busy all the time, doesn't seem like something a guy is going to want to be involved with. You never know, though. Maybe things will work out this time. All I can do is hope.
I will say that he is absolutely amazing. We have so much in common, which makes him really easy to talk to. He's smart, almost as much as a music dork as I am, and well... perfect.

I say all of this and my brain goes, "Wait till after college". Yet, what if I miss this opportunity? I don't want to go through life going "What if this...? Or, what if that...?" Ya know? There is nothing good about those situations, as I have already found out. So, no. I can't wait till college, not with this.

Anyways, I'm sure ya'll are absolutely enjoying reading my vicious debate over all of this.. (heavy sarcasm)
Yet, I could be missing on opportunities as we speak.
Gots to go,
Thanks for reading!!

10 Songs You Should Listen To- Right This Second!

Here are ten songs you should listen to, right NOW. Haha, just kidding. No seriously, if you are half the music geek I am, I totally recommend listening to them. 

1. Runaway  by Mat Kearney - I love this song! Then again, I love a lot of Mat Kearney's songs... so yeah...

2. Vanilla Twilight by Owl City - This song is SO cute, I love listening to it!

3. Battle  by Chris August - Life IS a battle of wrong and right. Sometimes it's hard to find that fine line between the two. 

4. Calling You by Blue October- Although, I haven't really explored much of Blue October's music, I have really come to enjoy this particular song. As I call people a lot, this song is very fitting.

5. Drive By by Train- Honestly, I wasn't sure if I should have posted this one, or Train's "Marry You", just because I adore both. (I'm just an itty bit of a romanticist...okay, scratch that... extremely romantic would be closer to the truth)

6. Monster (remix) by Meg and Dia- Love this song, it's got such a cool beat!

7. Stronger by Kelly Clarkson - This is one of my favorite songs that I find really uplifting in those moments that I feel like crap, so it absolutely had to make it on to this list.

8. Sail by AWOLNATION-  No, I don't usually listen to the depressing songs. Yet, for some reason, I can't seem to stop humming this song. Not really sure what's up there.... 

9. I Hate This Part by The Pussycat Dolls- There was a brief post-break-up point for me, and this song had a LOT of meaning to me. 

10. Courageous by Casting Crowns- Sometimes the best things can come from just one courageous moment. :)

Hope you enjoy them as much as I do!

Thanks for reading!

Reflecting Back On Valentines Day

Flowers, cards with cute little poems, chocolates, and many other gestures of affections. Welcome to Valentines Day, the holiday to celebrate love. A day to show family, friends, and that special someone how much you care.

Valentines day is celebrated in many different ways. It made me curious as to how my readers celebrated yesterday. Those in a relationship, how did you celebrate? Did you get out and do anything special with your boyfriend/girlfriend? And my single readers, how did you celebrate? At the end of the night, how many of you were able to change your relationship status on things like Facebook? Please post below and let me know how you spent yesterday.

I spent yesterday from 7:30am to 3pm doing school. Then, I read a little and enjoyed some sketching. As of lately, I have been sketching more and more. Animals are the easiest for me to sketch, and they look the best when I am done. Haha, my people have an alien-like affect to them when I sketch them. Either animals or inanimate objects, I'll sketch, dependent upon my mood. Yesterday, I sketched animals. I did a little creative writing, and ended my artsy evening by jamming to some songs on my Ipod. My family and I celebrated our Valentines Day over dinner. Mom made awesome pizza. She has been experimenting some recipes on us. She made two pizzas last night, a BBQ one and a bacon/chicken/ranch one. Personally, the latter was my favorite. It had bacon, and (honestly) anything with bacon takes top place with me. Ever since my mom found out she couldn't have bacon (or anything pork, for that matter), we have had to make do without it. Which, has made me quite sad...

Anyways, Mom decorated and arranged some really cute cupcakes. Rose and Matthew handed out their handmade valentines. Rose performed a ballet, lyrical, tap routine for us, which was choreographed pretty nicely if I do say so. 

Then, I chatted it up on Facebook before heading to bed. There was a hockey game on last night, which held absolutely no interest of mine (even though I heard the Red Wings made history...). 

I didn't spend Valentines Day in any romantic way, with anyone 'special'. Trust me, I wanted to (secretly) (no, my family would disagree on the secrecy part...haha). I keep trying to tell myself to make it through at least high school... yet, I feel like that goal may be a little hard to stick with. So, I don't know, maybe next Valentines Day will be different. All a girl can do is hope.... :)

Anyways, post your adventures of yesterday!!!! Love to hear what ya'll did!!! 

Thanks for reading!!!